tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18202100421506013642011-04-21T11:34:29.315-07:00Positively Freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11186002721281226103noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1820210042150601364.post-6520299764859760342009-04-22T12:39:00.000-07:002009-04-22T13:35:40.702-07:00<div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:100%;" >Hello!! This is my very first blog entry. I've been reading blogs for a while now and have always wanted to start a blog but never took the time. Many bloggers say it is therapeutic so I thought I would give it a shot...so <span style="font-style: italic;">here goes!</span><br /><br />I guess it was the deprivation of "calorie counting" and the not "truly listening" to my body that got me into this mess. When I started losing weight, I never ate what I wanted. I ate what was low calorie and usually not satisfying. Or I would eat and eat and eat, even though I was already full, all because I had extra calories remaining for the day.<br /><br />Last year, I started working in the real world part-time as a bank teller. Before this, I would eat every 2-3 hours like clockwork (a little yogurt with fiber one cereal, a luna bar, you get the idea--low calorie foods). Well, at the bank, this was unheard of. We opened at 8:15am, you get an hour break for lunch, and then we close at 6:30pm! This threw a loop into my "diet." Needless to say, when I got out of work, I just HAD to go to the gym to get my workout in and then go home starving and eat until my calories were all up.<br /><br />I believe this eating pattern and also stress from the job (I was robbed at gunpoint a month after I started working...) has led me to where I am today--20 pounds heavier with binge eating and midnight eating issues. I've read some self-help books (eg. Geneen Roth's Breaking Free From Compulsive Eating) and just recently started seeing a therapist, whom shall be called "Dr. T." With this combination of therapy and blogging and journaling, <span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">I believe I can and will overcome this disorder</span>.<br /><br />I am a perfectionist and expect results right away. Well, Julie, this won't be a quick fix! It's going to be "One day at a time." <span style="font-style: italic;">Perfection doesn't last.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">You CAN train your mind to think positively!! </span>Dr. T gave me homework. She wants me to be more aware of my thoughts. I have to tell my self,<span style="font-weight: bold;"> "slow it down"</span> and <span style="font-weight: bold;">"there's no rush"</span> when I wake up in the morning and the first thing I want to do is eat everything! so I have done that...and <span style="font-weight: bold;">AWARENESS</span> is something I totally have.<br /><br />Now...it's time to use that awareness and bring it to the next step:<span style="font-weight: bold;"> taking ACTION.<br /><br /><br /></span></span><div style="text-align: left;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.bloggingtips.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/09/think-positive.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 427px; height: 341px;" src="http://www.bloggingtips.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/09/think-positive.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1820210042150601364-652029976485976034?l=bepositivelyfree.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Positively Freehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11186002721281226103noreply@blogger.com0